scorpio
16nov
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Tuesday, July 20, 2010
i thank you, for you put me in the best spot whenever you can.
travel half the island just for me, and one full span back. i know i can never be half as nice as you are to me, but i sincerely do appreciate whatever that was done. thanks for putting half your body out for me every time, but what matters to me most is you believing in my potential, and in your words, is the potential to excel. i wish i can rise up to expectation, not his, not mine, but in particular - yours. for i don't wish to fail that bit of confidence you have in me, which i cant even find a trace within myself. a big part of me wish this can proceed smoothly, but another big part of me is a little stifled by the pressure. even though after telling you the truth, you said that they are separate issues, but the contrast sometimes works too huge for me to bear, so much so that i choose to avoid sometimes. forgive me if i can't meet your expectations, though you would not tell me if i don't. but many times i wish i could give a little more than i did. distance is what i'm keeping. but appreciation is what i'm holding too. "the least i can do for a friend" - i think its the most that a friend can do already. |