scorpio
16nov
|
Thursday, October 14, 2010
does it please you to see me fail?
does it please you to see me pale? first time in my life did i step up to a cinema counter, purchase a ticket and walk right into the theatre and sit through a 140min show by myself. all at the last minute, realising that the show is at 3:45 when it was 3:40 when i checked. its an awesome show. the kind of feel its good at its best and feel its bad at its worst kind of show. first time in my life did i take my keys and walked right out through that door, with nothing but a no batt phone. sat by the basketball court watched a few groups came and left and sat by the playground watched kids run about. for a full 2 hours. one of the many times in my life that i felt angry. at them for not thinking from me. true its not big deal. but its not a laughing matter. at least not for me. one of the many times in my life did i know what is it like to feel like i freaking did my best yet failed like mad. and i somehow knew. cause i just kept myself breathing and breathing. for fear that i forget how to. c'mon la. you can do better than this. |