its weird. how things always have to hit the pit bottom before i have time to come roaring and whining here.

work was bad. disclaimer would be that im at no point in time angry at anyone for anything but rather frustrated at myself for failing to meet expectations.
im constantly letting fear get to the better side of me - as much as i do not want to.
in a way, im constantly trying to show that i am capable, yet at the same time the incapability choose to sneak out on its own accord.
not exactly a good day, nowhere near "alright".
but things did not take a turn for good.
instead it took a plunge.
like i ask out loud, "ifyouhavetoputmethroughthistoseehowmuchcanitake, i concede defeat".
seriously, does it please you to put us in this position over and over again,
to face the same place, conquer the same fear and to let history repeats entirely?
we're freaking tired, please.
just when we thought things gonna turn a little smoother,
you choose to rattle and create chaos.
you know, people have limit?
when they reach the limit they are unreasonable.
you know when they go beyond the limit, things get out of hand.
dont justify yourself by saying you wanna push that limit.
cause, all you are pushing is your luck.
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