seriously, i should thank my lucky stars to have a friend like you, who really think i am not the worst on earth. knowing how irritating i can be, you insist that i hang an out with you when im down. thank you for putting me in place behind you as someone who wants iphone alot, and since you already have it and if you really do get it then, you gonna give it to me (unconditionally) - that doesnt mean i would accept. thanks for your (re)assurance that i am attractive in my own way and on the other hand if i go in and if i ever fail the relationship i would die horribly. thank you for all your acknowledgements that tanhuiqi has her "huiqireasons" which she would insist on having and abiding. thank you for bringing me to that place which i yearn to visit since eons ago, but couldnt step in cos of much inconvenience. thank you for being you. anytime for coffee, tea, lunch, dinner or supper as long as im willing to, thats how far you are willing to go for a friend. thank you for your non judgemental state whenever you're with me, for i do not appreciate that. to retreat is your way of caring and concerning as you said, fearing that undue pressure will backfire. you never fail to make me feel how inadequate i am next to you for i lose out so much - sincerity, the heart, the concern and the depth of giving.
"she should never reflect on her own" - you.
i officially declare i hate outram park area. for i always have trouble finding my bearings when im in that area. but i saw the nicest sunset today. like i said "at this time of the day, the sky is at its prettiest" and you agreed.
and today i finally told you the reason - that you already have a girlfriend.