the girl.the rain.the story

my life now. is in a random havoc state. as much as im doing alright, i am not. too much contradictions in my life now. i have a life, just ...

i finally. finally. finally have my own internet connection. F I N A L L Y. its been too long.

where did i go wrong. i lost a friend. if it takes just a step to walk the wrong way, congrats tanhuiqi, you just did.

i seek to believe that we are actually humans and we are doing things that are considered humane. things such as leaving without saying bye....

haha. just suddenly felt like adding some noise to this page. actually i do miss writing. writing informally i mean. too much formal writing...

just want to say HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU. :))

we did not establish the fact that we shared some exclusive memories. because, before i had the chance to do so, you left. and its been a lo...

i used to like you alot. but i cant anymore.

i never had chance to stay up at this late in the middle of the night almost never since 6 months ago. but it seems like tonight i refuse to...

.i.want.to.sit.down.and.cry. iforgothowitfeelsliketocrywithnoreservations.

no, i am not good. not good at all.

its weird. how things always have to hit the pit bottom before i have time to come roaring and whining here. work was bad. disclaimer would ...

the brain's a little overworked. the heart's a little overweight. i think im missing you a little over the edge.

dont pretend that nobody cares. cause you know thats not true. you load yourself with all the uncertainty. how are you sure that thats where...

there are times i felt like giving up. not cause i dont want to go on. more of cause i did not know how to. but at the same time, i want mys...

i know, its been super long ago since i last updated. yes that was a few months ago. which means to say that was LAST YEAR. so much have hap...

i'll miss you. over & over again.

no i havent forget. its 26/12. :) 8 years. nice. almost 1/3 of my life thankyouthankyouthankyou. this year you are a mrs. but to me you'...

its been a long and super slow november. didnt anticipate its arrival and now that its gone, im glad. this is the first time in many years t...

「兩杯中的熱拿鐵。」 『好的，請問拿鐵是要熱的還是冰的?』 「……」 是要逼我說出冰的熱拿鐵嗎? -spyorange.

you watched me grow old and now i want to watch you grow old. I may need you more than I think I do. and this time, its for a longer period ...

Its really not that i disappeared into thin air. Its just that i dont know how to leave my trace anymore. This November is not gonna be a go...

after so many years, this is the first time i came so close to going through what you like. and i actually enjoyed it. but i failed myself t...

I'm so tired. So tired that all i want to do is to fall back and sleep. Essentially yes i can do that. i'm so hungry. so hungry that...

does it please you to see me fail? does it please you to see me pale? first time in my life did i step up to a cinema counter, purchase a ti...

well wishes for you (x 2) here that came a bit late: to my dearest r2, wanna say congratulations for being a mrs! you've waited for this...

in a bid to love somebody you dont suffocate the other party. breathing is essential.

i didnt use to like running. i reinstate my stand that im not a runner, as my running speed was never the best among the teammates. but i fe...

thank you for the dinner. thank you for sharing. i hope i dont end up on your black list. but you are really one lucky dude. though i wouldn...

status of the battered body: head throbbing pain. abdominal cramps. left ankle sprain. right thigh muscle strain. a very confused brain and ...

dontbesoselfish. itisasimportanttomeasitisasimportanttoyou. sopleasedontmagnifyyourworries foritdoesnotjustifyanything otherthanyourunreason...

its not nice, not nice at all to not be able to perform what you are more comfortable with. it saddens me much.

i hate my dream last night. hate having to wake up with a pounding heart. i heard the heart racing so fast in the dream and out of dream. th...

some people can easily declare "i miss you" but i dont know how to. how do i get those words out. i miss you. the words seem so un...

i want some minions. for they can read you when you dont have to say anything and they deliver promises at all cost. humans cant do that. hu...

i randomly went around to see, and saw something which i dont want to see. fb, the evil. although not a confirmation, i still think its enou...

i wanna remember every single detail of the concert last night. from the super fast dinner to the super big bowl of yoghurt that we almost g...

[pics shall come later - need time to sieve and upload] the men of the night: eason. calvin. william. --- and the woman velkhoo & helpin...

Q Bear says thank you :) for qii is okay, better than she was a few days ago. :) she will be fine in days to come :) hanging on to the stren...

i drank a little last night. i know i did it on purpose. to drink and ask for more. at the same time i do not worry for i know my limit. tho...

tonight i miss a lot of people. but in the end, i didnt find any one of them. cos i didnt know how to. and i cant find the courage to. what ...

WHY YOU DO THIS TO ME. JIU RANG WO LI NI YUAN YUAN. ZHE CHANG YOU XI WO SHU DE WU TI TOU DI. RANG WO CONG CI WANG LE NI. ---- THE PROBLEM IS...

finally i blew my top. have never been this angry for so long. i don;t know is it the stress or is it the pain or is it the irritability or ...

its been a while, since i was able to laugh till i want to cry. at one particular i wanted to cry, when i was laughing till i tear. at that ...

还是原来那个我 不过撂掉几公升泪所以变瘦 对着镜子我承诺 迟早我会换这张脸应对笑容 不算什么 爱错就爱错 早点认错 早一点解脱 我寂寞寂寞就好 这时候谁都别来安慰拥抱 就让我一个人去痛到 受不了伤到快疯掉 死不了就还好 我寂寞寂寞就好 你真的不用来我回忆里微笑 我就不相信我会笨到...

i used to think that the word "insubordination", or rather even "subordination", is a word only used in dramas. later so...

shall write a little about work. generally everything's quite fine. really. and to some extent i am finding it fun (MINUS away all the t...

"cause its seems like you'll be always there but you never are.." i never got the words out. "hmm okk" was all i cou...

such a huge contrast. An empty cinema theatre vs a fullhouse cinema theatre. at the same time slot. but thank you, for you made me reignite ...

a full empty movie theatre. only us. first time ever. everyone has heard the same story, just told in different perspective.

有沒有愛沒所謂 快不快樂有所謂

im so scared that i cannot sleep. if i can scold alot of things i would have done it, so that every word can bring out my fear. im sorry but...

what im afraid of is that you wont even give me a chance or wont even give yourself a chance.

not the easiest way neither the hardest. just have to take it in whichever it be. strut in your heels smile in your make up be the girl whom...

dammit. dont do this to me. and i always have to be the one who hears it first hand, and then delivers the message to the others. it doesnt ...

你总爱编织谎言 我负责配合表演 所有改变 只为了进入你的世界 这情节 重复了一百遍 才发现 是你的心太远 你划定楚河汉界 我不敢轻易犯规 所有时间 都是先给了你优先权 不自觉 爱到不敢冒险 成了你的傀儡一年两年 才看见我有多狼狈 爱到妥协 到头来还是无解 绑着你 不让你飞 历史不...

there was so much uncertainty that i chose to leave, thats how i am. when i dont like the situation, i pull myself out of it to the best of ...

seriously, i should thank my lucky stars to have a friend like you, who really think i am not the worst on earth. knowing how irritating i c...

had to write this day for i am amazed at my ability to sit and wait for somebody to do her hair for HOURS. haha. ~4.5hours. haha and i was b...

not quite the case. you do a better job than i do. - when the stars are shining bright from the sky, is it meant to because i realised that ...

i love how the rain drops down from the sky, while it takes away all the unhappiness, it brings many loves :)

an empty street an empty house a hole inside my heart.

you know where to find me.

"The shock of this movie lies not in the buildings but rather in each person’s heart." Aftershock -- An aftershock is a smaller e...

i hope we all don't fall prey to the "oh i wish weekend will come faster AND sunday wont end!" mode. but somehow i think we wi...

one step at a time, its not too hard. its just a little tiring, but you do fine. it doesnt take much to realise that you're losing your ...

i dont like this morning's dream. it feels weird waking up from it. it's not something scary or what. on the contrary, i dreamt that...

so much for being alive.

i thank you, for you put me in the best spot whenever you can. travel half the island just for me, and one full span back. i know i can neve...

love this picture (:

halfway through the show, i felt weird. really weird. simply cause i can relate to it very much. the fact that it goes round having talk ab...

I either scared the worst out of my instructor or pissed the most out of him during driving lessons. I'm sure. "车要慢慢手要快快! 大小姐转快一点!...

12th july 2010 . the day that we all donned the super heavy academic dress and put on the super heavy academic dress, bearing the memories o...

when i hear them croon, or rather - her, i felt at peace. even though the music was blasting through the night, even the whole hall was bubb...

its getting harder and harder over the days. and i dread it more and more as it intensify. it always have to reach to this stage, where i wo...

maybe not. we'll just see what happens. BLEAH.

i hope it will work. for some reason, i wish to get it this time. but for now, let's hope they dont think im playing hard to get.

thank you you. for i found myself while i lost you. so hey there me! :)

决定了。 不求你。 因为没有必要。 不懂你好在哪里。 再见。 。 有没有发现句点其实是绕了一圈？

i know every "last" that i said is not the last. but please believe me when i say i try to make it the last. just that every ...

can you feel both good and bad about your actions at one point in time? i took everything and crushed them. for i begin to feel tired. so i ...

i thought i was wrong. BUT. I'm wrong about thinking i was wrong. its the kind of instance, that you set a bomb ticking, and simply just...

you - fail. fail. fail. like seriously, intentionally or unintentionally. you put out all the evidences for people to see, and try to act in...

这次我走开, 再没有话要说出来, 就再也不会回来。

tanhongyu :) happy birthday! :) happy 23 :) happy happy :) :)

i off-ed my phone for one half of the day. and i didn't bring back my phone for the 2nd half of the day. but its okay. it wouldnt matter...

a 12 year old talk to me about love and jealousy. a 22 year old cant answer a question a question about love. --- i reject ur kindness, ...

人最大的蠢事是疑神疑鬼 但是对象是人不是鬼 害怕别人发现他的蠢 所以疑神疑鬼 给己: 你的想象力未免也太丰富了吧 给他: 请你别胡思乱想

day 7: 160510 2nd day at 浪淘沙. the day that we are supposed to go up up up! succumbed to Mr Looi's persuasion, we took his ride again. bu...