will you free me?

its been a while, since i was able to laugh till i want to cry. at one particular i wanted to cry, when i was laughing till i tear. at that moment i felt happy and sad at the same time. happy that i still have them, sad that im not happy without them.

the influx of emotions came at the earlier part of the day when an awful truth was confirmed. i was certain that a small part of me felt a little lost as to where im heading. so i kind of only had to tell myself that i can only keep walking straight ahead.

so last night, i laughed my hardest since a long time ago. trying to take in all the happy moments as though hoping it would last till the next time we meet.

i have many thoughts about this issue. and when one particular came, i was surprised at its entry. and lately, ive been feeling a little low due to various issues, things that i cannot handle. and irritated at my inability to cope, both yours and mine.

and im already dreading the coming week.

suddenly, i need to chill very much.