Wednesday, August 18, 2010

i close my eyes and pray.

im so scared that i cannot sleep. if i can scold alot of things i would have done it, so that every word can bring out my fear. im sorry but i cant help it.

i need somebody by me at this moment so much, in order for me to stay sane and to tell me nothing's gonna happen. i dont dare to sleep and wake up to bad news. i dont dare to sleep. i dont dare to wake up. i dont dare to face her. i dont dare to face them.

i hate that setting. i hate that setting. i hate that setting. when i say it 3 times i mean it. cant you just freaking give me a break from that place?! EVERY YEAR I HAVE TO BE THERE FOR SOME REASON OR ANOTHER. FOR SOME REASON OR ANOTHER CAN YOU GIVE ME A BREAK?! dammit.

thank you girl for being with me whole day, for i badly needed somebody even though i may not say, that i dont want to be alone any minute and that work took my mind off some stuff. and that i dont want to see anybody whom may start to ask or remind. thank you very much. for you are the only one who knows. thank you.

either way, i dont want to know.

you would be fine. you would be alright. dont let my tears fall.